A Mixed Bag Of Emotions
August 26, 2010
Paige, Me, and Brian on Loveland Pass
Its all about the buckle… Last Thursday, Paige and I headed to Leadville with fellow CHUGs Brian, Kelly and Deanna. We took the scenic route and stopped to check out Loveland Pass, we couldn’t help ourselves, we had to snap a “jumper”. After a short stop to pick up some groceries, we were in Leadville. We checked into the Leadville Hostel and headed to packet pick-up. As we walked into the gym, the energy of the place was palatable. At the table next to me, a guy announced himself as racer number 3, Duncan. This guy looked fast and with a low number like that, I wondered if this “Duncan” might be somewhere near the front come Saturday. We picked up our packets and then had a delicious pasta dinner. My nerves were already in place but now they were front and center. We mingled a little before heading back to the hostel, a short walk away, to relax a little before a restless night.

Me, Tony Krupicka, and Paige
Friday was our medical check-in and mandatory runner meeting. As we were standing there, Tony Krupicka walked in. Tony, was second at Western States and has many a course record. We said hello and introduced ourselves before asking for a picture, which he graciously posed for. Rob, Tom and Rina had come to Leadville for the weekend to crew and pace, they met us for the crew meeting which started immediately following the runner meeting. It was awesome to see them along with Lucy. After the meeting, we grabbed some lunch at High Mountain Pies, they made an awesome pizza! After lunch, it was back to work, we had drop bags and crew vehicle bags to pack. Then we briefed our crew for what to expect come Saturday. The hostel was imposing a 6:30PM quiet time which worked out great for us even though we didn’t go to bed, it was very relaxing. The next morning, the alarm was unneeded as I woke up at 1:58AM after another restless night. I felt okay and promptly got up to tend to my pre-race stuff. After finishing getting dressed, I met up with my baby and other runners from the hostel.

Paige, Me, Rob, Tom and Rina - At The Start
It was a short walk to the start where we saw a ton of friends from all parts of the country. We checked-in and then took some pictures before lining up for the start. As the gun went off, I felt a surge of excitement and nerves. My plan was to run a sub-25 hour race but knew that was going to be tough, even on a perfect day due to my level of fitness and the altitude… but I had to try. So, a couple of miles into the race, I kissed Paige goodbye and wished her luck on her day - it was hard to say goodbye but definitely not the hardest thing I would have to do before the day was over. The next 13 miles were packed with over 600 runners but I didn’t mind, I was running Leadville. As we wound around Turquoise Lake, I fell in with a group of runners going my pace. The first aid station (AS) was May Queen and there was Tom guiding me in. After a relatively quick turnaround, I was off into the woods again but I was already behind my goal pace. The next section went smoothly and I arrived Fish Hatchery still behind schedule but feeling decent. The next section was short, only about 4 miles until I would see the crew again. When I got there, Rina was already there which meant that Paige wasn’t that far behind me. After pushing for nearly 30 miles and still being way behind the sub-25 hour pace, I decided that I was going to wait for Paige and we could run the rest of the race together. I didn’t have to wait long, she was having a bang-up day and rolled in 15 minutes or so later. After a quick change of the shoes, we were on the trail again.

Leaving Twin Lakes
It felt so good to be running together. We passed through Halfmoon AS and were feeling good. This section is very runnable and we were passing miles reasonably quickly. It was starting to warm up a bit and I finally took my gloves off. We saw Brian coming into the AS as we were leaving, he looked good. Over the next 9 miles, we did long stretches of running with some uphill walking. We were passed by Barefoot Ted, a bit of a legend. He is one of the main characters in the whole barefoot running movement. He was wearing some homemade hiraches (sp) when we saw him but at other points in the race, he was actually barefoot - amazing. When we pulled into Fish Hatchery, I heard someone call my name - it was Julia. Julia is a longtime friend who moved to Denver for residency and here she was cheering us into the AS with her pup Charlie. We were ahead of our anticipated arrival time so we took our crew off guard but they quickly got us our things and we were on our way toward Hope Pass. Paige wasn’t feeling too great, her stomach was bothering her, so we took it easy as we passed through several water crossings. The deepest of the 5 or 6 crossings was an actual river and it was knee high - it was refreshing but it also meant we now had wet shoes. I was saying that we should be seeing some of the front runners soon and just as I finished that comment, Tony came around the corner with his pacer - he was tearing it up! Seeing him and how easy he made it look sent a surge of energy through me; it didn’t have quite the same effect on Paige : ) We got to the base of Hope Pass and started to climb, it was slow going but we made steady progress. As we came over a slight crest, we could see the Hopeless AS, it was situated in the valley below Hope Pass - what a great spot these folks had. We sat for a minute while the volunteers filled our bottles. We collected our selves and headed up and over; the back side of the pass was just as beautiful. The trail was challenging on the way down with tricky footing and lots of runner traffic to navigate but we saw lots of familiar faces, all with words of encouragement. When we eventually made it to the road, we didn’t know exactly how far it was to the turnaround but we knew it was going to be tight. We started up the road which was very dusty and congested. My mood was slipping fast and hard. By the time we reached the turnaround, we only had 15 minutes to get back out onto the trail. Paige and I had a quick conversation about the very real time crunch we were facing, we had to make the return trip back over Hope Pass 15 minutes faster than we had just done it if we were going to make the cutoff at Twin Lakes. We decided we had to go for it even though it seemed unlikely we were going to make it in time. We got into the Winfield AS, did our medical check-in, and then got down to business. I heard my name and looked up to see Brandon, a friend and roommate from college. He was there to pace his friend who was also pushing the cutoff. I really wanted to catch up but we needed to move so we said a quick hello and then we hit the trail.

Our Pacers: Rina and Tom
Tom and Rina were dressed and ready to roll. We made our way down the dusty road again trying to move as quick as we could but it wasn’t nearly as much fun having to be so worried about the time. Upon hitting the steep section of the trail, Paige began to struggle with her breathing. Before long, the pressure of making the time cutoff and the steepness of the hill started getting in her head. We sat down and talked for a while and she decided she didn’t want to go on. It was a tough decision for both of us because once she decided, I had to decide. Was I going to keep going without her, which didn’t sound that great, or was I going to stop and not try to make it, which sounded even worse. Paige felt terrible that she might be the reason I didn’t make it to the finish line - as soon as I heard her say that, my decision was made. I kissed her goodbye and Tom and I headed up Hope Pass while Paige and Rina turned back toward the road. I was teary for a few minutes and then I got angry. I was mad that the cutoff times were as tough as they were. I channelled the anger, found a rhythm and started reeling in runners. The sun was setting as Tom and I made it to the top of the pass. We were making good time and even better time on the downhill side. After a quick stop to top off our bottles at the Hopeless AS, we started really moving. We kept up a very solid pace all the way down to the river and into the Twin Lakes AS with 20+ minutes to spare… I had made it. I couldn’t believe it and I could hardly contain myself.

WIth Rob, Heading Toward The Finish
Having made up so much time, I felt confident that I could make the remaining cutoffs… my dream of finishing this thing was alive again. I did a quick change, checked out of the AS and headed into the woods, alone for the next 17 miles. The effort to make up time had taken its toll on my legs but I was still moving fairly well and nothing specifically hurt so I knew I would bounce back. I continued to pass people and by the time I made it to Halfmoon AS, I had gained an hour on the cutoff. I could breathe a little easier now. I got my drop bag and sat for a minute. Then I brushed my teeth, ahh, what a feeling. I noticed Joe Judd at the AS and said hello. Joe had come to Leadville to pace Paige but when he got word that Paige had dropped, he volunteered to help another runner - what a great guy. Heading out of the AS, my confidence was high, I could walk the rest of the race and still finish in time. The next few miles passed quickly and soon I was back at Fish Hatchery AS where Rob was ready to join me for the rest of the night. Leaving the AS, I was pretty stiff but Rob suggested a little running and that was all the encouragement it took, we ran the next mile or more at a decent clip - it felt so good to cover some ground. That all came to a crashing halt when we hit the base of Sugarloaf and started to climb again. I pushed as hard as I could but all I could manage was a strong hike - Rob was patient with me and we steadily reeled in runners. After a seeming eternity, we crested the top of the pass and started down. I wanted to run but my legs weren’t having it so we continued our fast hiking until Rob finally convinced me to run a little more. The final couple of miles into May Queen felt remarkably long. At one point, we could hear the cheers and talking coming from the AS and then they got distant again as we circled around and came back into it from the road - it was a tough reality at that stage of the game. When we got to the AS, Tom guided us in. I sat down inside where it was warm while Rob collected some soup. As I sat there, I was basking in the fact that I had well over 4 hours to finish a half marathon - I knew it was a certainty that I was going to finish now and that felt pretty darn good. Rob got me up out of the chair and back on the trail. We walked for a good long while as I tried to warm my legs back up. We tried a few times to run but for the most part, I was relegated to a fast walk. As we approached town, the sun had risen and was starting to warm us up again. We laughed some but mostly just focused on the goal. We turned the corner into town and as we crested the hill, we could see the finish line about a half mile away. We simultaneously decided that we would start running from the sign that said “Slow” - for some reason, speeding up just as the street sign instructed me to slow down really tickled me. We ran the rest of the way to the finish where Paige, Tom, Rina, Lucy, Brian, Kelly, Deanna, Ben and Sarah awaited. I immediately found my girl and held her tight as the tears rolled.
This was by far the most emotional race I’ve ever done. I’m still struggling to reconcile all the emotion from the weekend but there are a few things for which there is a great deal of clarity: 1) I loved having the Corson boys at my side throughout the journey, 2) it was great to be in Colorado, 3) it was awesome spending time with Brelly, Deanna and our other running friends, 4) running at altitude is different, 5) mountains are awesome, and 6) my girl is the best. Despite her own disappointment, Paige completely came through for me, supported me, and shared in my joy - she is amazing. I couldn’t ask for better friends; Tom, Rob, and Rina took time off work to come crew/pace and they did a great job! Brian pushed aside his own disappointment from the day, and showed up for me to celebrate. Of course I had mixed emotions about how the day unfolded but I can’t deny how ecstatic I was to have pulled it together and finished the race. After showering and napping, we said our goodbyes to Rob and Rina before heading to the awards ceremony. We then spent the afternoon eating and lounging around. Tom stuck around for the night and we did more of the same. I slept well that night and woke up feeling much better than expected. As we packed up our items, the sadness started to creep in - I didn’t want to leave, I didn’t want to have the experience be over, I didn’t want go back to the real world… not yet, I wanted to stay a while longer and savor everything.


After taking in the view, which included seeing the starting line as well as nearly all of the Death Valley, we headed down the road toward Furnace Creek where Adrian and Simone awaited. When we got to the resort, the temperature was 119 degrees and while that sounds hot, it actually felt good. I will admit to being a little bit of a desert rat having always been drawn to hot dry climates but,it seriously didn’t feel all that hot. We checked into our rooms and they far exceeded my expectations, who would have thought that there would be such glorious accommodations in the middle of DV?!? Everyone was in a chipper mood and after some catching up, we headed to dinner. Runners and their crews could now be spotted here and there and my adrenaline was pumping - we were “running” with the big dogs or, in this case, some of the toughest men and women on the planet and it was awesome! After dinner, Adrian, Paige and I headed to the pool. Adrian’s philosophy is that Saturday is just a day off and meant for celebration, I’m not gonna lie to you, it got a little crazy before the night was through but we survived jumping from the roof of the sunshade into the pool so all was good.






This weekend was the final big weekend of training for Leadville so on Saturday, Paige and I headed out to
We left Chicago on Friday morning and rolled into Carlton, MN around 5:30PM. After picking up our packets, we went to Cozy Cafe for dinner. Sitting near the entrance was a group of runners, one of which we recognized as Rob Wehner (the super RD for Glacial Trail which we ran and loved last fall), he invited us to join their group and boy were we glad we did, they were hilarious! After dinner we walked over to watch the finish of a 5k the town holds as part of their Carlton Daze festivities. We were drawn to a couple with a tiny yellow lab puppy and immediately made friends with Jim and his wife. It turned out to be one of those conversations that leaves you wishing you were neighbors so you could get to know these people more (and play with their puppy, of course). We headed into Duluth to have a look around. Having run Grandma’s marathon several times, it was fun to revisit and show Paige around since she’d never been before.

We are off for the northland. Ten years ago, I ran my first ultra at 

Soon the rain had turned to a downpour and then the lightning started. Paige and I were planning to split the 38 miles of pacing but when Ed came into the Bluff Road AS, he was thinking he may not be able to continue past the 100K mark. I got dressed and waited for him, just in case. When he got there, the rain was starting to finally let up but he wasn’t able to carry on any further. I trust Ed’s instinct as to what he can push through and what needs to be respected. Congrats on a great effort Ed and the 100K personal best. With our runner now safely back in his hotel room, our focus turned to Leslie. The rain and dropping temps had chilled her to the bone.





